Mixed Feelings

It's weird to try and grasp that I'm on my Mac, listening to my little brother play his high school basketball game in Hillsboro...and I'm sitting in Nashville getting ready to move into school tomorrow! As it gets closer, I get more excited, and the longer I'm actually in the city the less scary it seems (so far). I think I just have this view of being in a city like Nashville, like I don't belong if I'm not the next T-Swift, which is a pretty big dream of mine (haha). I'm definitely ready right now to move into my apartment and meet the people I'll be with for the next three months. Actually, I kind of just want Monday to get here so I can start classes and see how crazy challenging this semester is going to be. It's always waiting for things to happen that's the worst, then once they do, you always find out its not as bad as you made it to be in the parts of life you wasted worrying about it. Funny how we worry so much and it actually hurts us....yeah I'm still working on kicking that habit!
I really have no idea what to expect of this semester. Part of me is wishing at least one other person is as intimidated as I am about putting my music and abilities out there to be critiqued...but of course right now I feel like I'll be the only one there who feels inexperienced. The thing is, I know I'm supposed to be right where I am because of some reason God has, be that music or something else. There were countless opportunities for my chance to spend a semester here to be cancelled, and yet each time God made it so evident that I wasn't getting out of it. So, as nervous as I am, I'll keep reminding myself that if I'm worrying about the other parts of being here, I'm wasting time because God will do what he wants with these next months whether I'm stressing out or stress-free!