Classes start tomorrow! Actually, chaos starts tomorrow. It's really hard to just call it classes like normal...because our classes lead into long rehearsal sessions that can be at anytime--all night long if we need to. We go from one thing to the next, all on different schedules, so I know keeping what I'm supposed to be doing and where I'm supposed to be straight is going to be hard for me. I did get a handy-dandy day-planner though, so hopefully that helps.
I'm really nervous, but really excited to see where I find my "niche" in music. I know that my passion is from a worship/ministry perspective, that my music is my testimony, the way I share with others what I've learned and hope to connect with them on a deeper level. It's hard because at times I want to have the voice or music of someone else here...but I know thats definitely not why God brought me here. I'm finding that the more I try to do what I want to do because it looks like so much fun for others...the more I fail and feel insecure about why I'm here. But when I'm focused on why I really love music, what its brought me through, and how it tells my story, I start gaining some confidence back. It really makes me realize how much God does not give us opportunities so that we can live it up just to have a blast. Instead, I think he gives us opportunities that are sometimes hard or painful, sometimes the thing we don't want to do. He makes us grow in a way and at some point we start seeing the true satisfaction that comes from seeking what God wants for our lives--not just what we want. I'm not saying this as something I know...but something I'm starting to figure out.
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